Sunday, January 4

lots of things.

oh MAN!
an empty house,
a full moon,
and a snow day?!?!
that's a lot to take in at once, waking up early as heck-
with clawed hands, gnarled up and extra-brabby,
and a tightening (if somewhat weak-chinned) clenched jawline,
all gnash and grind,
with morning breath steaming out into the cold air outside my blanket fort.
what big teeth i have, y'all.
nobody else is around, and the icy crystals sound
like broken glass falling on my metal rooftop,
but there isn't anyone here to hear it.
what big ears i have, kids.
i can sort of see the lightest spot in the sky,
reflected back and forth from the white on the ground, and the grey in the air.
it's like a kaleidoscope of night,
and the big silver orb behind the barricade of cloudcover
is pushing all of it's invisible emanations out
to those of us who are receptive to those ultraelectromagnetic rays.
you just need to look for it.
what hungry orange eyes i've got, guys.
this morning,
there is a convergent set of circumstances that can only add up
and amount to a berserker barbarian battle-beastly raging holy-sh!tstorm
of overactive reactionary everything!
yeah!!
neighbors,
i could feel the pressure building.
under my skin, in my blood, behind my eyes, inside my teeth-
but,
i wasn't sure whether it was the weather or not;
if i was ready, or not;
and if the electrically-charged atmosphere was just from the cold,
or something more.
now i know-
it's a full-moon snow day, and i'm home alone.
conditions are perfect for a new year freak-out!
that's exciting.
there's so much to do,
and i've got a werewolf's worth of worthwhile work ahead of me-
i'm layering up for shovelfights with the ice outside,
and i'm calling on all the nutrients of the last week to power up
all the pugnacious predisposition that infinite nature has imparted on me.
it works.
that's a thing.
the best way to flip the F* out and enjoy a collectively calamitous trifecta
of coincidental incidences right this instant?
mmhmm.
embrace the you that is infinite.
y'gotta,
because nature wins, friends. every. single. time.
i promise.
i mean, there's a tendency to interpret actions and reactions,
causes and effects, affects and defects through humanity-colored glassed.
that's nice and everything, but that ain't the truth.
the secret universal plan is a playbook of dirty deals, hard-styles,
tough times, good and bad luck, with spirit and memory lodged in between
the hot fire and the chain lightning.
but, i'll bet you would rather believe the unbelievable,
like,
you pet cat really loves you-
so dumb.
as a matter of fact,
that rosy-colored application seems so silly when you're smart.
but, what the heck-
you guys just really like a little anthropomorphism in your outlook, don'tcha?
no?
oh, c'mon.
sure you do.
you've been perfectly placated into projecting it onto me for years.
ka-BOOM.
i'm a protean polymorph on my best day,
and just because i know the words doesn't mean we're speaking the same language.
hahahahahahha.
EW.
because full moon, duders.
because snow day, duders.
yeah, so what?
and add on all-by-my-all-alonely in the Folk Life & Liberty Fortress, too.
i'll say things, i'll do things, and so will you.
today is the day for that sort unconscious unconscionable freaky-diki-doo-doo jauns.
mmmmhmmmm.
***********
oh,
and since i didn't give you any pictures yesterday,
here's some that aren't really relevant, from throughout the day..
i got a new hat.
and apparently, also,
i'm as big a fan of full length mirrors as every regular girl on instagram?
check the #ootd-type teleport:
awwwwwwwww, man.
oh, C'MON.
i'm responsible for my actions,
because i embrace the teen girl deep inside my heart.
ummmm?
right.
well,
in addition to being a big gay baby sometimes,
i'm also a big fat disgusting shark-glutton.
too much is the right amount.
teleport:
if it's vegan, it's IN there.
devoured in under two exits of northbound travel.
yep.
i eat and run, while texting, and singing along to sappy songs in my subaru.
jealous?
i did this on the rubberiest skin i've blasted in ages:
ouch.
i dunno.
'make it look old-ish, simple-ish, but bright-ish,
and also like a picture i brought,
but also like something i'm imagining....'
hey, man, i gave it a shot.
and there wasn't an american flag in it,
so that's something.
*
today is already something else,
but, it HAS to be,
because it's all really happening.
all the things, all day;
never quiet, never soft.....

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