fairness.

"i hope it *uckin' hurts."
that seems to be the secret universal plan's penultimate sentiment,
in regards to the metaphorically deep, dry-dockin',
hard-style pounding i've been taking.
and man, there's been an awful lot of it lately.
in a row, and at the same time, even.
like consecutive unsolicited, unwarranted gangbangs,
right up the ol' 'butter churner.
i guess even if you're not guilty,
for some reason,
sometimes,
you still have it comin'.
i guess it's just one of those things;
you take it prison-style until you just can't stand it anymore.
and then you make your escape.
i've got my rock hammer and a poster of rita hayworth...
damn,
i never figured myself eligible for that shawshank-type sh!t.

what do you ninjas know about fairness?
i've always been all about it.
i feel good when everyone gets the same amount of something;
i feel good when stand-up behavior is rewarded;
i feel good when bad things happen to a-holes; 
an' stuff like that. 
i know i try to live hard, and keep it fair.
i don't cheat. i don't steal. i don't do a lot of lame takin' advantage-type stuff.
i take responsibility for my actions.
it's only fair, after all......
which is why it's so f*n' hard to sit out on the other side of pro-activity,
having faith in doing the right things,
and letting the wrong things expose themselves for what they are,
hoping that the blueprints have allowed for a big, fat, cold plate of get-even-steven,
epic,
righteous,
trial by combat,
fairly played,
balance to the force kind of outcome.....

why take it so in-depth and explicit to the butthole of my own life?
well,
i like the other parts, the various hottness of the woodsly goodness,
much more than i don't like the ways in which i provide for 'em....
sometimes dudes say some profound things:
'i love a lot of things, and pretty much hate the rest.'
that about sums it all up.
when you're livin' high on the hog,
it's hard to imagine wallowing with pigs.....
either way,
bacon is still delicious,
and meat is still murder.
it's just What Is;
never quiet, never soft...