sometimes, if i know i'm about to be all alone for a day,
i go back to where i came from.
y'don't forget your roots, or you'll become an ungrounded bummer, bro.
i started baking seriously to cope with loss and frustration,
a meditative process that produced something fancy, but functional,
to sustain and nourish all the aspects of my creative and hungry infinite nature.
that's the truth.
and when i need to just dissolve all the stresses that i'm carrying?
i could never ever just do nothing.
i don't want to escape, i want to engage, and for me, that means DOING something.
more often than not,
that specifically means making something delicious and delightful,
beautiful and bountiful,
conscientious, conscious, and creative, all at once.
so, i did that.
and *gasp* i used ALLL the regular-A* wheat and gluten-based goodness i had on hand.
i'll make all the gluten-free everything if that makes it possible to include
my closest companion i the thing i love to do the most.....
but if i'm solo for even a second?
i'm going full super-success expert-style succulence,
and i promise you, it'll be F*ing rad every time.
check the process/progress report:
man, i got alllllll the razzlers on top of this.
and i'm gonna tell you how you can too.
here we go:
preheat your oven to 370℉
in a small pot,
add 12oz of frozen raspberries
to 1/4 cup powdered sugar and 3 T non-GMO gluten-free organic cornstarch sfted together
with 1/2 tsp lemon extract and 1 tsp vanilla defrosted and thickened over medium-low heat,
until it's all a blarpity blob of redness.
remove them form the heat source and set 'em aside.
get out a medium-sized mixing bowl,
and using a pastry-cutter, combine:
1 stick ( 8T ) vegan butter;
1 cup brown sugar;
1/2 tsp salt;
1 tsp vanilla;
add 1/2 cup unsweetened applesauce;
2 1/4 cups a.p. flour;
2 tsp baking powder;
1 tsp baking soda;
1/4 cup rolled oats;
3 T tapioca starch.
and mix in:
1 cup non-dairy milk.
fold all the ingredients into a very thick batter,
and spread evenly in a greased 9 x 12" pan.
add the slippery red raspberry sauce, spread evenly across the top,
and quickly, in your batter bowl,
make up some streuselly crumble topping!
3 T vegan butter;
1 tsp vanilla;
1 cup quick oats;
1/4 cup dessicated unsweetened organic coconut;
1/4 cup powdered sugar.
chop chop chop that all up until it clumps together,
and take handfuls of it, and sprankle it all over the berry bits.
now you've got three layers, playboi-
all that's left to do is to bake it for thirty minutes.
i mean, really, these jauns are F*ing amazing.
fluffy bottom cake,
crunchy cookie-style crumbs,
very tart-and-sweet berry teamwork in-between.
that's dreamy, dudes.
i'm a dream-maker, in cake form.
i can live with that.
the process is productive,
and the results are undeniable.
i feel better, i did something creative,
i created something usable,
i got involved in my own life as a way to decompress from my own life.
i like that.
it's all really happening, kids.
that's the whole point.
it may never ever be enough,
but i'll never ever stop trying to get there;